2018.

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I laugh as I look back at the beginning of 2018.. I claimed it to be "My Year" the year I discovered me in every essence, every marrow, every emotion, every hardship, and every celebration. As I look back, it was a year to be remembered.

Here are but some of the biggest moments that come straight to mind
  • My little sister's White Coat Ceremony in NYC where the whole family came for a long weekend to be together to celebrate
  • The passing of my Grandmother to cancer
  • The passing of my Grandfather
  • The passing of my Cousin to cancer
  • My solo birthday vacation to Fort Bragg
  • My trip with Steve to Mexico City where I fell absolutely in LOVE with the sites, culture and food
  • The wedding of my best friend, Carey, to the man of her dreams in Virginia
  • My amazing breakthroughs in therapy
  • Moving into SF and meeting Jenna and Sam, some amazing women who have shaped my life in so many amazing ways
  • Being on top of my fitness journey, thanks to Flywheel :)
  • My bestfriendship with Elise which had very many twists and turns but always relying on each other for love, support, and hard conversations
  • More half marathons, old news 
  • Finding my love for volleyball and meeting some dope friends
  • Working for Meltwater and becoming the SaaSy lady I am now while managing a team
  • My sister's visit to SF where we went to Big Sur, Wine Country, shucked oysters, and many more in a span of a week
  • The wedding of Sarah and having an amazing Aural Pleasure reunion in LA
  • Vegas with Elise
  • Making new friends and keeping up with old ones
  • Concerts (lots of them)
  • Outside Lands
  • Learning Bhangra with Neera
  • Mini Cousin Reunion in NYC in November
  • My first friend and roommate in SF, Kristina, got engaged!
  • Dating in SF (enough said)
  • Katie (also enough said) <3
  • AsiaSF with Maggie for her birthday
  • Getting back into painting (Thanks Kim)
  • Expanding my wine palate aka drinking A LOT of wine
  • Septum piercing 
  • The everchanging emotions in regards to my parents
Things I look forward to in 2019
  • That there will always be takeoffs and landings- whether by trips planned or unplanned. 
  • To remember ONESELF-- the most important of them all. 
  • LOVE. because there is always more to give.
I look forward to the seasons that change, whether it be the seasons of nature, the seasons of love, the seasons of friendship, the seasons of life.
I look forward to the risks, the scary ones, and ones that I know will make a difference. 
I look forward to the moments of rest that are celebrated, cherished, and deserved.

There will be much in these 365 days. What can we truly know until the events have passed?

For the first time, I am completely okay with that. Like,  not knowing, is COMPLETELY okay.

You'll be completely okay.

xx,

Bori








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