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I miss you.

 I smoked a cigarette and I thought of you.  I remember the person I am when I am with you.  I remember how I feel when I drink wine with you.  I remember the smell of the air when I walk with you.  You are my most beautiful memory.  You are the one of the proudest parts of who I am.  I love you, Madrid. 

Have You Ever...

Have you ever created a resume and applied for jobs for your immigrant Father who is going to be laid off?  I have. Have you ever felt yourself cut open your chest, lay your heart on the floor, and cry at the sight of it? I have.  Have you ever dreamt of a life without guilt, free to use the money you have earned so hard so that you can do the things you love with the people you love? I have not.  As I work until the late hours of the night... after a full day's of work.. looking ahead to a full day of work ahead, I feel my heart crackling into pieces I don't even want to place together.  I think about my Father... the fact that English is not his mother tongue.. I think about the fact that he has no idea what to do or how to do it. He told me I catch him, but my heart tears at the catching as this is the man who tore my heart open as a child.. a childhood that withered away because it was too painful to remember.  Now, I wither. I have been withering since the ...